Replace the pain with purpose. The hurt this body brings is nothing compared to the joy I have known. Lyme is NO match love.💚 Nerve pain rolled in hard during 7p class and tremors have came in waves since. It’s funny how you can lose all limb sensation except that one where your skin feels like chemical burn. That and my mood together I didn’t bother consider sleep til after 1, but I found out my family was on their way! Nothing flips an iffy mood like your sister/BIL & 9 month nephew showing up at 4:30am and having pancakes + the works ready when they walk in. Today they are off to stand in demonstration for our spiritual freedom and awareness in the Dalai Lama’s lies against his own lineage of teachings. I am there I spirit but my body is done for a few hours. And on that note, it is almost 9a and I am having a scandalous reunion with my heating pad and diazepam. 24h is long enough for me to last without cracking and the house is finally quiet again until around 4 today I hope. “Goodnite” my lovelies.
It’s really upsetting when people don’t understand my tone or intention because I get so anxious about how I phrase things before I do it to make sure that I’m clear I rewrite everything like 5 times before I post a status or send a text and half the time I could have gotten myself in just as much trouble if I didn’t care at all.
Two blackbirds on a highway sign are laughing at me here with my wings clipped. I’m staring up at the sky but the bombs keep fucking falling. There’s no devil on my shoulder, he’s got a rocking chair on my front porch. But I won’t let him in, no I won’t let him in. I’m sick of seeing ghosts and I know how’s it’s all gonna end, there’s no triumph in waiting, there’s no sunset to ride off in. We all want to be great men and there’s nothing romantic about. I just want to know that I did all I could with what I was given. 🎧 #ijustwanttoselloutmyfuneral #thegreatestgeneration
— Want, Clementine von Radics (via didyoueatallthisacid)
These dudes are fucking legit. They don’t just show up one day in court, either, they actually make friends with the kids and let them know they have a support system and that there are people in the world who care about them and will always have their back. And less important, but also cool, is that the few times a couple of them have come into my cafe, they’ve been super friendly and polite and when I told one of the guys that I noticed his Bikers Against Child Abuse patch and wanted him to know how awesome I thought he was because of it, he got kind of shy and blushed and said, “The kids are the awesome ones, we just let them know they’re allowed to be brave.”
I just cried a little. I can’t even.
On a scale of Katniss Everdeen to Ned Stark, how much would you say you trust the government?
Don’t be scared. We represent someone who can help you. Someone who can make all your dreams come true.
Financial Aid Office
"Is this making you feel better at all?"
Forever on team legging
Fuck pants basically.
That’s the point. Down with pants!
What was your worst experience with side effects?
Zofran gave me the worst headaches and dizziness.
Large doses of prednisone make my nose feel like it’s not mine. It’s really hard to explain, and it’s the most bizarre feeling.I think Cytoxan…
Prednisone sent me into psychosis. I cried for hours because the geese on my blanket were “slowly crawling toward me to devour me” and I kept seeing the neighbor kids trying to burn down my house. I don’t know why I’m not completely banned from steroids yet.
My skin crawled for months after I tried cymbals for like just 3
I can’t remember which one, but an amitriptylene relative gave me hallucinations one time. I started feeling nauseous so I went to the bathroom and then I felt dizzy and then out of nowhere, I just saw these legs walking around like there were no bodies, just legs.
Then Vicodin one time made me pass out on the floor and I was stuck in my room and no one found me for hours. I had to get myself up when I woke up.
cymbalta* freakin autocorrect lol
There were also a bad few years in high school when I was working on my herniated disk/ pinched nerve stuff and my dr couldn’t give two shits about interactions no matter how much j asked and worried.
Muscle relaxers(skelaxen mostly) / opioids(oxy mostly) / beta blockers / ssris(mostly lexapro) = badddd combo. Nasty scary hallucinations and non epileptic seizures
Fuck careless pain mgmt docs. Fuck drs who blow odd rational concerns like you’re a naive child. Fuck broken bodies that can’t handle the abuse the system adds.
|student:||hey government can I have some money to go to university|
|uk government:||sure here you go. you'll have to pay it back but only when you're earning £21,000+ a year, and if you don't pay it off after 30 years we'll just write it off, don't worry about it man|
|scottish government:||nah man just go to uni we ain't gonna charge you|
|us government:||no. you gotta pay it yourself. upfront. your parents have to save up from the moment you're born. good luck, fucker.|
if you ever feel like you’re too attention starved and pathetic, remember that one time William S. Burroughs cut off his entire finger because his lover was ignoring him